Real. Heart. Ache.

R.I.P. Papa Shawn

I haven’t been up to posting anything until today.

My Stepdad passed away after a long hard battle with cancer. I always thought he’d beat it and stay in our lives. Its still hard to wake up and know that I won’t see him anymore or be able to talk to him. I am comforted by the fact that he is my guardian angel and isn’t in pain anymore….but the selfish part of me just wishes he was still here. 

Aside from my best friend passing away a few summers back…this is my first loss of a family member. It f-ing sucks. It opened my eyes up to a lot of different things and thoughts….I miss him a lot already. A lot of things already feel so differently without him here. 

It makes me feel better knowing that his physical presence may not be here, but I know in my heart that he is right by my side…always.

May he rest in peace.

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